So I have been cleansing my life of the negative. Trying to at least. I have cut back contact with those entities that draw me into the darkness and I am pushing upward to a life of happines and on the path to finding what I really want in this world.
This summer I met someone, facinating, strong, sexy, and smart. We spent the most interesting and rollercoasterish 4 days two people could spend. Probably had a whole relationships ups and downs and then parted ways. Only to speak again almost 3 months later. This is a man who made me feel beautiful, not by the way he looked at me or things he said but how he treated me, how he respected me. Im sure with a job like his he just likes to have fun and thats what we did, I let myself go and just enjoy the moment. Living life in the moment, for the first time ever really, without thinking what comes next. But after we parted ways and made plans to meet up again when he moved to california, my moment of happiness was ruined by the waiting game.
I decided that I wouldnt get hooked, so I gave him my email and my phone number. ...he never called. So I had already requested him on skype and after a month or so I gave up hope of hearing anything. After 2 months I turned to the phrase, if we're meant to talk again, we will. Almost 3 months and what happens...Saturday at 2:16 in the after noon I get a txt via skype. Hi give me a call. After 3 months...hi give me a call. I just saw it today. So I texted back, "I'm sure you are the busy one so call when ya get a chance!" And the next chapter begins. 10 minutes later I was talking to new zealand via skype on my handy dandy iPhone. He wanted to camera chat but alas, I am in no condition to show him what I look like via computer when I'm in PJS and hair undone, especially after 3 months....So he came and went and will return again in January....
It will be interesting to see what the future has in store. January. It's not so far away. And now, at least, we are communicating.
God works in mysterious ways. All the praying for signs and for the security to know everything will be good in the end. I think he's finally talking to me. Or. Maybe it's that I am now open enough to listen. I am thankful for new life. New love. And....whatever may come next.
