Where do I go wrong

They say that history repeates itself, they weren't lying. Who were "They" anyway, who gave them permission to put that terrible saying out there. I'm sure it plagues more and more people everyday. Bottom line is, it seems to be true, and it sucks.

MEN! How is it that they can love you, think youre amazing, cant wait to share experiences with you, and then the next they are MIA, no words, calls, emails, txt's, How busy can life be that a person cant even send a "Hi, how's your day going?" Or and "I'm just thinking about you, sorry life's so hectic for me right now." In the long run I would say, "He's just not that into" ME, but the fact is they dragggggg it out. A friend gave me a lot to think about the other day. He said, as busy as he gets, he still makes time to see the girl he is dating, he makes a point to show his interest. I get that work gets busy, I get that. But what I don't get is not giving a heads up to someone you've been dating for 2 months about how you wont have time for the next 2 weeks, not even to TALK...what the fuck kinda crap is that!!!

It amuses me and pisses me off that in those two months, I stuck by this guy when he had no home, not his own pot to piss in, when he was technically homeless. He made time amongst work in order to come out and have a beer with me for an hour, we didnt even have to go out, we could sit and watch a movie. He said I was "amazing"- (Ive got the txt to prove it!) But if I was so amazing, why would he put me through this hell now.

It seems like every guy Ive dated in the past year has decided to end things by just disappearing, don't they know its not that easy. Don't they realize they will have to confront their demons at some point. It's just disappointing when you finally go for a guy with morals and a good christian upbringing and he turns out to be the same kind of asshole as every other guy.

Its disheartening and friggin' depressing. I vowed I wouldn't allow myself to get all mushy so soon, and I didn't. Maybe in this situation it was my downfall. I said I would give him this week to step it up, but I dont know if my imaginative brain can take it very much longer. Life pretty much sucks right now.